Not witty enough to come up with a good title...

but it is only my second day at this blog thing, cut me some slack! I guess I am just supposed to write my feelings?? Thoughts? Things that pop up throughout the day? Well, I was very productive today, definitely a gold star day. I am liking this focus on making each hour count for the short and long term approach. I have a very close friend who is resolving this year to be less caught up with efficiency, but I think I need to resolve the exact opposite. In the past months I have been so focused on squeezing pleasure and instant gratification out of the moments ("just do what makes you happy, it may be different every day...") and was slapped with the realization one day that I was doing what made me happy each day, but had nothing to show for the previous months. I mean, I survived a semester academically and even secured a summer job already, but internally, what do I have to show for the past semester? I did make tons of friends, a result of my networking skills which will be handy in my career, but even that feels empty in comparison to what I could have been spending my time doing. Regrets? I've had a few...

speaking of which, I was always the girl who tried to convince myself, and others, that nothing was to be regretted, for everything we have done has brought us to this unique, blessed moment. I am a glass half full girl, for sure, and regrets seem to have no part in my outlook on life and the mystery of why. But from a more practical standpoint, I am pretty sure that as far as the existence of regrets is concerned, I have been deceiving myself for a long time. Is there anything I would go back and change if given the opportunity? YES! But does my faith assure me that it is impossible and thus fruitless to dwell on this? YES. So I pretend to live without regret, but that is just a slap in the face to those who most suffered the consequences of the decisions I would change had I another chance. But I don't. So... I wake up each morning since yesterday, the first day of the rest of my life, resolved to live presently so as to not have any regrets, rather than living in the future (the whole "everything happens for a reason we can't yet understand" theology), ignoring the past so as to bury any regrets.

We'll see...